Journal Entry 7/27/13: Welcome to Asheville

AshevilleSignAsheville, Nc is one of those places that if you visit once you never forget. It’s a small city of about 100,000 so the community is really close and really liberal. A lot of people call it a hippie Town. The people have beautiful spirits and would give you the shirt off of their back if it came down to it. It has the feel and closeness of a neighborhood. The last time I was here was about 10 years ago with E&A and I played with Blueprint and the original Greenhouse Effect a few years before that. We played this spot called the Music Zone back then. It was the spot a perfect venue. The perfect size for the Perfect people. This time we played a spot called Timo’s House (http://timoshouse.com/) and I think this is the new spot in Asheville, for us at least. Its a nice size bar with a small stage. Very intimate. It was thick in there and people in Asheville love to dance. Blueprint and I killed and Dj Rare groove closed out the night with a dance party like only he can do. It was a great night.

This weekend they were having the Bele Chere Arts and Music Festival (http://www.belecherefestival.com/) which is a large festival that they have had in this town for over 35 years. For Columbus heads it’s like if Comfest span our whole downtown. It was full of awesome venders, art and fun music. We got to hang out for a while and it was a really good time. I was told that during this festival the population of the city grows from 100,000 to 300,000 people so it was great time for us to play. During my time exploring the festival I wrote a little poem that describes the diversity of the festival and the city itself…

Strollers pushed by teenage mothers and or nuclear family members
Mimes painted silver frozen for change
Violins loop as a tilt a whirl whirling notes of a tomorrow remembered
Sun dresses kids in khaki shorts and tanks
Topless matriarchs bear their hearts cage screaming freedom
Intellectuals discuss philosophy on street corners no matter how misguided or off kilter they seem
Off key karaoke religious zealots only sharing the anger of God and forfeiting his love loosing souls with fear camouflaging their message.
Only on a beautiful day in Asheville.

More to come. You can still catch the “Bend but Don’t break Tour when it hits your city…

Sat. July 27th – Johnson City,TN @ Mecca Lounge | http://on.fb.me/1aOWspP

Sun. July 28th – Nashville, TN @ The East Room | http://on.fb.me/15BOQ5L

Weds. July 31st – Dallas, TX @ Crown and Garp | https://www.facebook.com/events/295176187295037

Thurs Aug 1st – Austin, TX @ ND Austin | http://on.fb.me/14yggsA

Friday Aug 2nd – San Marcos, TX @ The Triple Crown | http://on.fb.me/17nVON1

Sat. Aug 3rd – San Antonio, TX @ The Limelight | http://on.fb.me/10WINv0 

Sun. Aug 4th – El Paso, TX @ Tricky Falls w/ Souls of Mischief | http://on.fb.me/14YvgCr

Mon. Aug 5th – Santa Fe, NM @ The Lodge at Santa Fe Cabaret | http://on.fb.me/15HguwJ

Tue. Aug  6th – Las Vegas, NV @ LVCS | http://on.fb.me/11Ou9RH

Weds Aug 7th – San Diego, CA @ Soda Bar | https://www.facebook.com/events/240274046097961/

Thur. Aug 8th – Flagstaff, AZ @ Green Room | http://on.fb.me/15HgD3k

Fri. Aug 9th-  Los Angeles, CA @ The Airliner | http://on.fb.me/16AsWkb

Sat. Aug 10th – Oakland,CA @ The Legionnaire Saloon | http://on.fb.me/1cobaC4

Mon. Aug 12th – Boise, ID @ The Shredder | http://on.fb.me/1aOWSwm 

Tue. Aug 13th – Spokane,WA @ Carr’s Corner | http://on.fb.me/10WJcgY

Wed. Aug 14th – Missoula, MT @ Stage 112 | http://on.fb.me/15HgSeE

Thur. Aug 15th – Salt Lake City, UT @ The Project | http://on.fb.me/10m6sSW

Fri. Aug 16th Ketchum,ID @ Whiskey Jacques | http://on.fb.me/14uzjDO

Sat. Aug 17th – Bozeman,MT @ Zebra Cocktail Lounge | http://on.fb.me/11OupQz

Sun. Aug 18th – Great Falls, MT @ Machinery Row | http://on.fb.me/1aOX9zj

Tues. Aug 20th – Fargo, ND @ The Aquarium |  http://on.fb.me/12DT0Xb

Wed. Aug 21st – Sioux Falls, SD @ Billy Frogs | http://on.fb.me/121rZNl

Thur. Aug 22nd – Duluth,MN @ Red Star | http://on.fb.me/10m6CK5

Fri. Aug 23rd – Green Bay,WI @ JD’s Bar | http://on.fb.me/19vs4T1

Sat. Aug 24th – Minneapolis,MN @ Pour House | http://on.fb.me/10WJCUo

Mon Aug 26th – Grand Rapids, MI @ Pyramid Scheme | http://on.fb.me/1aOXhyV

Weds. Aug 28th – Boston, MA @ Middle East Upstairs

Friday Aug 30th – Pittsburgh, PA @ Thunderbird Cafe

Sat. Aug 31st – Buffalo,NY @ Duke’s Bohemian Grove Bar | http://on.fb.me/10m6L03

Sun Sept 1st – Erie, PA @ Crooked I

 

Tour Journal: 7/19/13 Leave a web of legacy

spider

The first night of the Greenhouse “Bend but don’t break” tour is officially behind us. Last night we played at the V-Club in Huntington,  West Virginia. For me it was my second time playing there and I believe it was Blueprints second time as well. We had two opening acts Couch Life (probably one of the best crew names ever. Only in West Virginia) and the WV staple crew Dinosaur Burps.  I know what your thinking “where do they come up with these names?” But don’t let the Dinosaur Burps name fool you. Emcee B-Rude and Dj Squeazle are one of the best kept secrets in hip hop in my opinion. Funny, witty and just plain dope. You can catch me featured on a song called “Spice Melange” for their next album which for now is untitled I believe with no official release date. Check out the Video below and their bandcamp to support.

 

Anyways the show was a good time. The small but energetic crowd heavily supported the merch table which means we did our job.

For me the illest part of the night for me was when I went outside to snap a few pics and I saw a spider weaving its web. I watched it almost from beginning to end.  I had only seen that on animal planet or some random nature shows but but never in real life. Live. It was an amazing thing to see. Though I hate spiders I had never seen anything like it and I was instantly captivated. It made me think about how as a father, husband, man and artist I and working to leave a web legacy.  A legacy that I hope is worth something to my family and others who support me to get caught up in so-to-say like the spider web. It takes some time for the spider to find a place where it wants to put that anchor down and leave their mark but once they make up in their minds to do it they go all in. This is what I believe that I have been doing in my life in all aspects as of late,  weaving a web of legacy that is worth being embraced and getting caught up in. Too many times we as human beings focus to much on today and we don’t think about what we will be remembered for tomorrow.  We don’t think about what we will leave those that will follow us in this world and it shows in how we entertain our children.  It shows in the popular music and violent movies that we feed them and ourselves. It shows and its sad. Lets wake up and think about tomorrow.  Lets think about what we are going to leave the next generation and if they will be proud of what we leave them.

I left my family yesterday for this tour, which is the hardest thing for us as artists to do when your family is filled with love as mine is,  in order to strengthen the legacy that am going to leave behind. I’m out here weaving a web for my children to see tomorrow. For them to get caught in by choice. I know that I am called to be great as my grandmother mother would tell me as are my seed. I just have to make sure that I leave them something great to build on. Something that they can be proud of. What will you leave those that will follow you?

Well that’s it for this first entry. I hope you guys get something from it. Feel free to leave a comment with any questions or to further the discussion.

Tonight Louisville, Ky. See you soon….

Fri. July 19th – Louisville, KY @ The Phoenix Hill Tavern | http://on.fb.me/10m5Tc0

Sat. July 20th – Birmingham, AL @ The Bottletree | http://on.fb.me/12lrHVD

Sun. July 21st – Chapel Hill, NC @ Local 506 | http://on.fb.me/10m5W7C

Weds July 24th – Atlanta, GA @ The Drunken Unicorn | http://on.fb.me/14yg5xz

Thur. July 25th – Charlotte, NC @ The Neighborhood Theater | http://on.fb.me/19vqWyV

Fri. July 26th – Asheville, NC @ Timos’ House | http://on.fb.me/17hS0NL

Sat. July 27th – Johnson City,TN @ Mecca Lounge | http://on.fb.me/1aOWspP

Weds. July 31st – Dallas, TX @ Crown and Garp

Thurs Aug 1st – Austin, TX @ ND Austin | http://on.fb.me/14yggsA

Friday Aug 2nd – Houston, TX @ Warehouse Live / Greenroom

Sat. Aug 3rd – San Antonio, TX @ The Limelight | http://on.fb.me/10WINv0

Sun. Aug 4th – El Paso, TX @ Tricky Falls w/ Souls of Mischief | http://on.fb.me/14YvgCr

Mon. Aug 5th – Santa Fe, NM @ The Lodge at Santa Fe Cabaret | http://on.fb.me/15HguwJ

Tue. AugFri. 6th – Las Vegas, NV @ LVCS | http://on.fb.me/11Ou9RH

Thur. Aug 8th – Flagstaff, AZ @ Green Room | http://on.fb.me/15HgD3k

Fri. Aug 9th- Los Angeles, CA @ The Airliner | http://on.fb.me/16AsWkb

Sat. Aug 10th – Oakland,CA @ The Legionnaire Saloon | http://on.fb.me/1cobaC4

Mon. Aug 12th – Boise, ID @ The Shredder | http://on.fb.me/1aOWSwm

Tue. Aug 13th – Spokane,WA @ Carr’s Corner | http://on.fb.me/10WJcgY

Wed. Aug 14th – Missoula, MT @ Stage 112 | http://on.fb.me/15HgSeE

Thur. Aug 15th – Salt Lake City, UT @ The Project | http://on.fb.me/10m6sSW

Fri. Aug 16th Ketchum,ID @ Whiskey Jacques | http://on.fb.me/14uzjDO

Sat. Aug 17th – Bozeman,MT @ Zebra Cocktail Lounge | http://on.fb.me/11OupQz

Sun. Aug 18th – Great Falls, MT @ Machinery Row | http://on.fb.me/1aOX9zj

Tues. Aug 20th – Fargo, ND @ The Aquarium | http://on.fb.me/12DT0Xb

Wed. Aug 21st – Sioux Falls, SD @ Billy Frogs | http://on.fb.me/121rZNl

Thur. Aug 22nd – Duluth,MN @ Red Star | http://on.fb.me/10m6CK5

Fri. Aug 23rd – Green Bay,WI @ JD’s Bar | http://on.fb.me/19vs4T1

Sat. Aug 24th – Minneapolis,MN @ Pour House | http://on.fb.me/10WJCUo

Mon Aug 26th – Grand Rapids, MI @ Pyramid Scheme | http://on.fb.me/1aOXhyV

Weds. Aug 28th – Boston, MA @ Middle East Upstairs

Friday Aug 30th – Pittsburgh, PA @ Thunderbird Cafe

Sat. Aug 31st – Buffalo,NY @ Duke’s Bohemian Grove Bar | http://on.fb.me/10m6L03

Sun Sept 1st – Erie, PA @ Crooked I

Capturing the Sun: Dealing with Grief

Me and My Grandma
Me and My Grandma

Thoughts jumbled. Time passing. No more tears. The echoes of you saying “Grandson walk with purpose. They will listen because you are a Great man of God.” Failure not an option. You keep driving me and I am grateful. I never thought that I would be here but I am and you are here with me. Time passing. I miss you. There will never be a day that passes that I don’t think of you. You are a great woman. Full of anointing and smiles that dim the brightest of stars. You are with me always.

How do we grieve? Some do it by locking themselves in a room, drowning themselves in tears and sorrow never coming up for air, suffocated by the turmoil of loss. Some find themselves trying to ignore the fact that a loss has occurred, moving on with their lives as if nothing has happened. Some bury themselves in their work to offset the pain that they feel inside in an attempt not to acknowledge the strong emotions that are ever so present in their hearts. So how do you grieve? How do I grieve?

Webster’s Dictionary defines grief as deep and poignant distress caused by or as if by bereavement or deep sadness especially for the loss of someone or something loved. My question is why does grief have to be a negative emotion? As many of you know I lost my grandmother not too long ago and I have been asking myself why am I not grieving in the traditional sense of the word? Why am I not sorrowful? Did I not love my grandmother as much as I thought? Then it hit me talking to my wife one night that I am grieving in my own way. I am embracing the idea that I am grieving with moving forward. I grieve by celebrating her life with living mine with every fiber of my being attempting to be up right in the eyes of God as she and my mother have taught me. I grieve by not grieving. By fulfilling all that she spoke over my life. I grieve with a smile on my face because I know that she smiles on me. There will never be a time that I don’t miss her but, I choose to celebrate her by living and breathing life into others as she did. I do this with my music. This is why it is only fitting that the concept of “Capture the Sun” was inspired and dedicated to her. She is breathing for me when I am out of breath. She is interceding for me when I have no where to turn. She is Still here.

I have come to realize that how we deal with grief is a choice. We can choose to be sad and stagnate due to the loss of a loved one or we can be energized by the fact that they are not gone. They are here with us always because they implanted life inside of us. As I breathe she continues to do so. So if anyone out there can hear me that have lost someone close to them, understand that they are not gone. If they ever gave you advice that you live by or prayed over you life for your well being and prosperity then they are still there with you and always will be. And they will continue to live beyond your years if you impart something they gave you to some one else and so on and so on…

No matter your spiritual beliefs there is life after death for those who imparted parts of their lives into others. Their ideas and purpose still live on in our minds hearts and actions. So remember to make the choice to live in their memories. Live in their words. Live in the lessons that they taught you and they will never die. So how do you grieve? It’s up to you.